It’s been two months since I wrote my last blog. If you’ll remember, I shared that my angelic guides were asking me to set everything down…to decompress during the holidays. I had been dealing with vertigo and they told me it was time to take a rest. So I did. Well, what I now know is that they were preparing me for what lay ahead. I'll share a little here. It's rather an interesting story, especially when you read the miracle that happened towards the end.
Two years ago I was diagnosed with a brain abnormality called Chiari Malformation I. This is where the bottom of the brain called the tonsil of the brain juts too far down into the cervical spine cutting off the flow of spinal fluid. You can be born with this or it can occur due to trauma. I've had five whiplashes over the last 15 years so I'm guessing that this is where it began for me. Some of the symptoms associated with Chiari Malformation I are extreme vertigo, mental fog, migraines, aches and pains in the body, loss of use of your appendages, trouble swallowing that can lead to choking, loss of vision that can lead to blindness, loss of hearing, etc., you get it. If the disease progresses, it can be rather extreme. People often chase doctors for years trying to figure out what is wrong with them. I did. I was tested for MS, lupus and finally the doctors said I had beginning stages of fibromyalgia. I knew they were wrong. It turns out that with Chiari, this is what often happens.
When I was finally given a correct diagnosis two years ago it was due to nystagmus (eyes vibrating) and extreme vertigo. Thankfully, it calmed down for a bit. I continued to have aches and pains in my body and mild headaches along with moments of vertigo, but I could live with it. However, things like loading my dishwasher and turning around would shut me down for a whole day. My life was literally coming to a standstill. I chose to live with this because my choice was either that or brain surgery. Here in the States the remedy for this is to cut a chunk of your skull out, go in and cut through the cervical spine and then to go into the spinal column and cauterize the inside of it to create a larger opening for the spinal fluids to flow. It's a seven-hour surgery with a very long stay in ICU and then an extremely long recovery. You can see why I opted out of it. I chose to go the chiropractic/physical therapy avenue. Then I took a turn for the worse.
Over the last several months the vertigo, weakness and mental fog have been debilitating. I’ve had many moments where I would sit down at my computer to simply read emails and would literally begin crying due to not being able to focus. My memory would also come and go. I knew that something was really wrong when I took a step one day and fell over my foot. I couldn't feel it. It wasn't numb. It simply wasn't there. Thankfully, that was only one episode. It showed me, however, that I couldn't stay in denial anymore. It was time to surrender.
I made a decision in mid-December to face this full-on and have the brain surgery. Now here's the really cool part. Because I live and breathe what I teach about the Law of Attraction and working with my guides, I said out loud to God, "Okay. It's time to get this surgery done. Please show me the neurosurgeon to go to. However, if there is a better way that I can do this that will be done with much more grace and ease, please show me the way."
THE NEXT DAY I went to our local outdoor mall with my hubby to have some lunch. There is an open play area for the kids with lots of tables. I noticed a rather odd looking huge dog and, knowing that Charlie is a dog lover, pointed it out to him. We were both drawn to it. We went over and began talking with the woman owner. I had never seen her before. Then her husband walked up and I realized that he had done some roofing work for us almost four years ago. I remembered really liking him. So we began to chat. I asked him, "Aren't you into boating and motorcycles?"
He told me that it was his 17-year-old son who had been into motocross and had also been a waverunner world champion racer, but that they had to pull him out over a year ago. That's when his wife interjected and said he had a long list of medical ailments and that he even had to quit high school. Of course, I had to ask what was going on and she said, "He has a brain problem called Chiari Malformation." My mouth dropped and I sat down in the chair.
As we began to discuss this problem, I asked them if their son was going to have brain surgery. They told me he had been scheduled with the Chiari Institute of NY, but that they had now found a surgeon in Barcelona, Spain, who did a much-less invasive procedure that was a 45-minute arthroscopic surgery and you are out of the hospital the next day. The surgery doesn't even go near the brain, but instead clips a tendon at the bottom of the spine that creates tension all up and down the spine including the tonsil of the brain, causing much of the issue in the first place. WELL, you can only imagine the excitement and shock I felt after hearing this. It had only been a day prior that I had asked for guidance to have an easier path and it showed up. Woo hoo!
God was showing me the way and continued to get my attention for several weeks. The first sign came a few days after our chat at the mall. I was driving one day and pulled up to a stoplight. I was thinking about everything and then glanced at the car’s license plate in front of me. It said, “Hohnadell.” I laughed out loud. This is the last name of the people who told me about the doctor in Spain! I laughed because your car is symbolic of your physical journey. I was being shown to follow this path. And it didn’t stop there. For almost two weeks, I ran into the Hohnadells either by themselves or together at least six or seven times! God was really trying to give me some signs! So I listened.
Of course, I did my homework to check out this Spanish doctor and he is one of the premier spinal docs in the world and the testimonials on his website are amazing. You can do all kinds of searches on the web for Dr. Royo at the Barcelona Chiari Institute and everything you find is awesome. So, in spite of having such a debilitating brain issue, I am on fire about the miracle that I've already experienced and am sitting with the intention that there will be great healing when I have the surgery next Tuesday, February 7th.
So as you read this blog, I am most likely on my way to Spain or already there. And I would welcome all prayers! I have no idea what is in store for me, but know that I am indeed on a magical adventure!
I will keep you posted!
With love and light…